The hardest drug of all: existing. Here's why

The message argues that desire is not our own but imposed, that chasing its satisfaction is like chasing the horizon, and that non-existence is free compared with the cost of existing. It clarifies that it is not talking about suicide, but about understanding, while alive, what our true good is.

There is a current of thought that has been saying the same thing for centuries in different words: the problem is not living, but living torn apart by desire. The text that has been circulating puts it bluntly. It says that existence is a tyranny, that desire has been forced upon us, and that chasing its satisfaction is like trying to reach the horizon. There is no way.

## Desire as an external imposition
The central idea is that we have come to believe we own a desire that actually comes from outside. At **14**, according to the text, the starting gun goes off and everyone scrambles for a tile to scratch. Some even say they are proud of it, and that keeps the show running for a lifetime. Existence is extremely expensive: you have to row hard to keep it afloat in a stormy sea. Non-existence, on the other hand, is free.

## Sleep as proof that continuous existence is unbearable
The most down-to-earth argument in the message is sleep. Every night we experience it in the deep floor, and no one could endure a continuous existence because it is unbearable. That is why not sleeping is unbearable. Forgetting is inevitable. That would be the true glory: the complete forgetting of a perversos state of imposed need. Before all this, according to the text, we knew neither hunger nor thirst, neither pain nor pleasure, neither terror nor illness, nor death.

## Liberation without suicide
The text covers itself: it is not talking about suicide, but about understanding, while alive, what our true good is. That is what it calls the great concealment of maya, the matrix, or whatever you want to call this state of tyranny of desires. The sages, without exception, sought liberation. The question it ends with sums it up: if we knew none of that, what were we missing?

These ideas should be taken for what they are, a personal philosophical reflection and not life advice. If anguish over desire or over existence itself weighs too heavily, the sensible thing is to talk to a mental health professional.