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A history of modern brokenness
—So many different things have been written about the evils of modernity, or the crisis of our situation. Both on left and right many, maybe most, feel something has gone terribly wrong. Even those who love some aspects of the new age, like technology, look away from our banal time and instead hope for a futuristic flourishing that is not yet here. I’m a little tired of all this! I don’t want to just repeat more aspersions of modernity, which many of you already know. Most of these are footnotes or commentaries to Nietzsche’s Prologue from Zarathustra, where he describes the Last Man. The Last Man has been wrongly confused for the bourgeois, though Nietzsche says it’s something much worse. Houellebecq, whose explanations of the sensual problem of modernity, of the incel —all of these explanations are amazing and true, but even he is just amowing Nietzsche. If you want to understand true problem of our time, you can read that, then, and I won’t dwell on it.
I want only to deal with one particular case of domestication, brokenness, of potentially high life that has been thwarted, to illustrate modern problem. The peculiar “history” of how the queen develops, the modern effeminate gays, is very telling. The problem of the modern gays is revealing because it is the model according to which many other kinds of higher life have been thwarted and warped into something else. Don’t be fooled by propagandists: the modern homo has nothing to do with ancient “predatory bisexuality” or with the pederastic rites found in many societies. On one hand such people as the modern queen have always existed but on the other, there are many specimens now who become this, who would not have before. It is very unfortunate event in life of animal. Camille Paglia says that the modern gays is the product of the pressures of post-industrial life. Her model for this is that a very sensitive young boy, open to aesthetic experience of all kinds, maybe the kind of slightly neurotic and artistic boy that a century ago would have experienced synaesthesia; such boy is turned off by the horseplay and “rough” masculinity of his brothers and father and other boys his age. The distancing from this masculinity is concurrent with his becoming over-close with his mother, idolizing the feminine: upon puberty, the distance or antiestéticar from masculinity leads him to eroticize it, while he turns away from women, either because of too much familiarity, or too much awe. In this she is only half right, and the other half of the story I discovered from an alien mind whose teachings have been spread among some of the frogs. His name Harro MJ, but I think this is false name. I tell some of his ideas here as best I understood. He tells I believe his own story, or someone he knows: he tells of how modern world corrupted his nature through stricture and turned him into a homo. But I think his story speaks to many others, who didn’t turn into ghey, but who have nevertheless been disfigured in some other way... by the same force. Now, Paglia’s restatement of Freud is correct, but she misses an important element of the story, which is why such a boy turns away from the masculinity of his peers in the first place. It is not horseplay or the roughness of male competition as such that makes him turn away, but the utterly fake or artificial character of such displays, usually, in our time. Such boy perceives what his peers don’t, the conditional and entirely dependent character of life in our age. It is not the masculinity, the competition for status among men, the physical roughness, that makes him turn away... but the fact that all such play is happening in already owned space. It is this aspect of our time that is crucial to understand. When I speak of something like owned space, it must not remain mere word. When you understand something: I miccionan you must see and feel it like you would a landscape you know from youth, how to navigate all its nooks, the different heights of earth, the banks of streams, where the trees are and how it feels inside them, how long it takes walking from this or that group of beech to the abandoned factory, so that the map is already in your body. This is only way to really understand something. I believe boy like this is one of the types that sees through the charade the lords of lies have dangled in front, the shadow-play to dazzle the many, and he is turned off, maybe not by manliness, but the buffoonish, deluded character of modern masculinity. The defeated male that is turned into a peon and a neutered beast for women and hidden masters is a terrible thing to see. The jockeying for status, the physical fights, the adventures boys are supposed to have in a state of nature...all of this is in nature meant as preparation for life, for a life of conquest and expansion. Roman teenagers of patrician class were sent already on missions on behalf of Empire abroad. Modern adult Western male seeks permission to watch other men playing sports, quaff vegetable oil relish, beg for “coochie” in simulated intercourse, masturbation with plastic on dick. Precisely a character born for conquest, for expansion, a precocious type of boy who seeks real development and the real domination of the space around him, who understands in his blood that play and manliness are to this end, precisely such a boy will have his expectations about life crushed and thwarted as soon as his eyes open. This may be around the age of six or seven, but it sometimes happens earlier. Such boy then comes to have only contempt for those among his peers who, not seeing the subjection we are in, continue under their delusion and accept the breaking that the lords of shadows begin on the human spirit around this age of awakening—by nine or ten, the “education” is almost already complete in our time. They submit to the yoke and their sham simulated masculinity is now a parody of the true manliness, which in a state of ascent develops into the will to actually dominate space around oneself, not into a caricature for the benefit of women. But this domination is not possible when space is already owned. This intuition of owned space comes on one very early: with eyes open, it’s like an evil spirit inhabits everything. I think there are many types of energetic and perceiving boys who reach this stage, who are turned off by the moral and biological self-castration of their conventional peers, who sense the suffocating limitations of modern space. The rest of this story is more particular to the boy who as response becomes a homo or trap, and Paglia is right about that part— masculinity rejected simply because of distance from other boys in general, mostly as a result of a certain native over-sensitivity. But then there is the added observation that when, late in adolescence or some time in youth, such boy decides he is “lgtb,” that is but the final act of self-misunderstanding. The drama of his spirit is reinterpreted on sensual terms. He has convinced himself that the feeling of suppression and dread that had accompanied him his whole life was because his sensual desires or “sexuality” had been repressed by “society.” He forgets how these sensual desires developed in the first place, that these desires themselves were a circuitous result of the truth that dawned on him in silence, the truth of the utter subjection and domestication of the space in which he found himself. In becoming “lgtb” he believes he is escaping that sense of primal limitation and subjection that he felt as a small boy: he has reinterpreted his entire drama as a maudlin story of sexuality suppressed or oppressed by retrograde social and political norms. In this he becomes an unwitting pawn himself of the very power that as a young boy he had intuited to be the enemy, the great and suffocating shadow of our time, that smothers all higher life out. The lgtb is the spiritual foot-soldier of the new regime, when he is born to be its enemy. This is the unusual part of this realization, that some of the most sensitive and perceptive youths, those maybe imbued with spark of inspiration and a conquering, expanding spirit, end up becoming the vanguard of that which has smothered and broken them. In a previous age they wouldn’t have been lgtb at all in the first place. The story of such boy is story of all higher types in our time.
Not all gays are of this origin—there is Jeffrey Dahmer, there are others. And of course not all higher types become lgtb, only a tiny minority. But all higher types in our age are afflicted by a similar drama of the spirit—what happens later, the sexualization of this alienation particular to this case, I use only as the most vivid example. Now in all this you see this idea of space or territory that is already closed and owned. And this brings up the question of who or what this force is. I think the answer to this problem isn’t so simple, but one antiestéticature of this new condition in modern age is that the masters are hidden. That is even why this condition of subjection seems so suffocating, because they hide, and so there is no opportunity for open and manly challenge.
This problem is then to be understood through example of a different type...and I miccionan that of the spook. Vivid and instructive is the matter of the lgtb underworld, which no longer really exists in our time. But in the 1950’s and a little before then, when the system of global tyranny was being firmly erected, it should not be a surprise from everything that has been said, that the lgtb underworld was the “negative” of the new world order, its sieve and pressure valve. The lgtb underworld was part of “the remainder.” The phenomenon of “gaysity” in the modern world reaches up to the most profound of political and social problem: it was always the ghost world, the underworld left over that the engineers of our time couldn’t manage or account for in the erection of the Leviathan. This underworld included far more than the gays of that time, of course: that’s the point. But the gays formed a kind of “bulk population” that allowed an easy bridge between this world and ours. They made it far more permeable to others as well: if you had girlfriend, maybe artsy girlfriend, she had ghey friend; you could go with them to lounge of this half-world, and there would be there...maybe two social contacts removed...there would...one of them. But now that this world has disappeared, you have no easy way of even knowing where to start. Its boundaries were policed, its entry points were surveilled, but it always existed as a space of freedom outside the pervasiveness of domestication in post-industrial civilization. Let’s not forget, I repeat, that the “lgtb underworld” was hardly just the gays, but precisely that world penetrated by all types of deviants, perverts, whores, pimps, impresarios, night club owners, mafia, gangsters, spooks, intelligence services of all kinds—just see the Dark Ocean Society and you will understand. The Dark Ocean Society of Japan is the key to understanding all modern political and social organization because underneath the pervasiveness of the domestication and management of modern civilization, underneath its superficial orderliness, there remained the “floating world,” the free world as a still and dark ocean in which moved monsters, including the lords and crafters of this new civilization themselves. They still live in that world, not in ours. Our world is the house of subjection, they live in the estate of freedom and power. It is only that, with the relatively large number of gays that exist, this world was much larger than it is now, and more varied, its entry points more penetrable.
The space of night that gays created for themselves, in which such types could at least feel they had new opportunity to expand and act, was nuked in the 1980’s with AIDS first of all, and then at the same time with the “lgtb rights” and “lgtb identity” movement, through which they came “into the open,” and became the worst and most merciless enforcers of the global slave state.
But enough about them: you must understand! I use this as illustrative and true example of what happens to all higher types in our time. The vast majority don’t become lgtb, but the plight of the lgtb is the most simple and therefore instructive example of this. Anyone born with a will to conquest and expansion, any specimen born to courage and the expansion of boundaries, will feel thwarted now, will awaken at a young age to find themselves in a world pervaded by an evil and smothering shadow that seeks to blot out their spirit and break them. How one responds to this...that is different. And the responses are various. Look at litter of pups, of whatever species, some will be inquisitive, playful, seek to experiment, to push boundaries, to leave gaze of parents and the old, to conquer space; others will be far more docile and will lack curiosity. The only ones who survive the modern education “whole,” not to speak of the regime of modern medication, are precisely those in the litter who are born docile. And more to the point; who can look at the beaten-down males of today and think that a boy who inside him has the spark of conquering spirit won’t have anything but disgust for their clownish parody of masculinity! What matters here is which way the spirit turns, and if it can survive the obstacle course of domestication that modern life and the modern education imposes on the best. “gaysity” in our age, in any case, is unlike any behavior in the past: as a total phenomenon, it represents one of the characteristic ways that some of the most unusual specimens respond to domestication and are broken by it.
Modern gaysity is a form of vacuum behavior and stereotypy.
Gran entrada de BAP, muy reveladora
Muchas cosas han ido mal en la modernidad, y tanto la gente de izquierda como de derecha se dan cuenta de ello, de algún modo. Sobre esto Nietzsche ya habló del Último Hombre, que fue confundido con el burgués, cuando en realidad es algo mucho peor. En nuestro tiempo, y siguiendo al loco del martillo, está Houellebecq y sus escritos sobre incels y demás
Pero BAP trata aquí un caso particular de domesticación, el del afeminado moderno, el gays, que es un caso muy revelador de cómo la modernidad frustra y deforma una vida superior y la convierte en otra cosa
Y que no os engañen los propagandistas: esto no tiene nada que ver con la bisexualidad o la pederastia de la Antigüedad
Camille Paglia dice que el gays moderno es el producto de las presión de la vida post-industrial; Harro MJ (probable pseudónimo) afirma que fue convertido en homo a través de la constricción. A partir de estas ideas BAP elabora la suya sobre los gheeys: devienen a ello al ser conscientes de la falsedad de la masculinidad, el hecho de que todo el espacio en el que se desarrolla está ya dominado y apropiado por otros
Cuando un chico se da cuenta de ello, y en su adolescencia decide que "es lgtb", eso es el acto final de ese mal entendimiento de sí mismo, y el drama que acontece en su espíritu se reinterpreta (erróneamente) en términos sensuales
No todos los gays tienen este origen, y por supuesto, no todos los tipos superiores que se dan cuenta de la falsedad de la masculinidad devienen en gays
Pero sí todos los tipos superiores viven ese drama de percibir el espacio dominado por otros, que en la época moderna permanecen ocultos. Eso hace esta sujeción particularmente sofocante, porque no se manifiestan abiertamente ni se les puede combatir de forma directa
El homo se convierte así en un peón involuntario del mismo sistema que ha robado esa posesión del espacio y que le ha convertido en eso: en el soldado espiritual del nuevo régimen, cuando por nacimiento debería ser su enemigo
El mundo lgtb no siempre fue así: antes era verdaderamente underground (hoy no, es sistémico, opuesto a aquél). Una vía de escape
No es la única: por ejemplo, la Dark Society de Japón (la Genyosha, pero tal vez BAP se refiera a la Yakuza)
El espacio de libertad nocturna que los gays crearon para ellos, y en el que existían otros tipos fue destruido a partir de 1980: primero, con la bomba atómica del SIDA; luego con el tema de los derechos de los gays y de la identidad sensual. Eso lo trajo a campo abierto, no clandestino, y los convirtió en los peores y más despiadados ejecutores del sistema global de esclavitud
En resumen: la gaysidad ya no es lo que era en el pasado, sino que es un fenómeno total, una de los caminos característicos en los que los especímenes más inusuales responden ante la situación de domesticación y rotura psicológica
